Sunday, November 4, 2012

Power Hour

The past few days I have taken a pretty serious approach to my thankfulness. Today I am going to deviate from that just a little, but please note that I am truly thankful for... Sunday naps. It may sound silly, but it's really what I am thankful for today. There is something special about a Sunday nap that sets it aside from napping on other days. Sunday is a special day set aside by the Lord for us to take a break from the world and recharge our spiritual batteries, and rest from our daily cares and worries. All of this contributes to the peacefulness of the Sunday nap. It's the one day when I can take a nap and not worry about what I should be doing instead, or what I need to do next. I can just sleep peacefully. There are weeks when you just need to shut down for a while, and a Sunday naps allows you to do just that. So silly as it might sound, I am thankful for Sunday naps.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

A Snapshot

Today I am thankful for my sister, Jolene. There is no one thing that I can name on it's own, so here's a list (not inclusive): I'm thankful for the way she makes me laugh, the way she listens, the way she laughs at me, the way she laughs with me, the way our minds think so much alike, the way our minds think so differently, the way she can understand what I'm saying even if I am sobbing incoherently, the way she makes me stronger, her wisdom, her faith, her confidence in me, her testimony, her kids, her beauty, her willingness to share her clothes with me (sometimes twice in one day...), her passion and devotion to the things that matter most to her, her good example. This is just a snapshot into why I am thankful for Jolene. She is truly my best friend. I am thankful to have her to look up to!

Friday, November 2, 2012

The Nanny Dance

Today I am thankful for my brother in law, Nic. I spend the weekends at my sister's house to help out with the boys. Tonight I made it just in time to put one boy in bed, give another his first bottle, and spend some time with the oldest. Nic was out helping a friend, so I didn't get to see him until later. When he got home he said, "I just did something kinda funny, and I'm not sure if I should tell you two." We got him to spill: he said that when he pulled into the driveway and saw my car he did a happy dance and said "Nanny's here! Nanny's here!" It feels good to feel so loved and appreciated! Later when I went to take my suitcase to my room I couldn't find it anywhere. I finally did find it downstairs, thanks to Nic. I really love my brother in law and the way he looks out for me. I am thankful for the way he makes me feel like part of his family.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Thanks is for Giving

Life moves at such a fast pace! Here we are, the first day of November, officially entering the 'holiday season." Last year I did one post each day of November in an effort to celebrate THANKSgiving. For those of you who don't know, I served my mission in the South. People joke about how I had to learn a new language down there, and it's true. I have a few favorite Southern words and phrases that make my heart smile. One of them is THANKSgiving. Every Southerner that I know emphasized the THANKS in Thanksgiving. That really struck a chord in my heart, and now that is how I hear the word THANKSgiving. I don't say it quite as fluently as a true Southerner, but I try, and most of all, I try to live it. With that said, this post begins my THANKSgiving.

Today's THANKS is a little selfish: I am thankful for who I am, and who I am becoming. Last week my life got really crazy and I was an emotional mess. I was angry, hurt, sad, and all of that other good stuff. During this time I was thinking that I just wanted to be mad for a while, to hold a grudge. But I knew that those things would not make me happy in the long run. In fact, within 2 days I was ready to forgive and move forward. I was still hurt, but I wanted to move on and feel better. Things are still crazy, and from time to time the tempter tries to get me to be angry or negative. It would be so easy to give in, but then I remember that those are not the things that will make me feel better now, or in the long run. As I pushed aside another temptation to be angry today, I found myself saying "Thank you" to the Lord for shaping me into the person that I am becoming. There was a time in my life when giving in to these feelings would have been easy, but I know better now. I am thankful for the experience that have brought me to where I am today. I am thankful to be me, and I am thankful to have had an opportunity to recognize who that really is for myself. I am also thankful for those who really know me, and who I really am. I know that I have a long way to go before I become who the Lord has planned for me to be, but I am working on it little by little.

Friday, September 28, 2012

Carefully Crafted Autobiography



For my student teaching application I had to come up with a "carefully crafted autobiography." What on earth does that mean?! Since the application itself has the more serious details, I decided to take more of an anecdotal approach. This is what it shaped into. My hope is that the cooperating teacher who reads this will get a sense of who Amanda is, not just a list of the facts. 



My name is Amanda Kaye Mair, and my life has been a series of fortunate events. Cliché as that may sound; it is more and more true every day. From horses to service, dreams and schemes to sweet potato pie, and on to special education, my life has been one grand adventure after another.
  I grew up in Grantsville, Utah. One of the advantages of growing up in a small town is that we were fortunate enough to have horses. I remember the first time my Dad put me on a horse: I was a little over five years old, and I got to ride Chico, our twenty-something year old Mustang. Chico’s fastest speed was a fast walk, but to my five year old self, that was speeding! Chico “ran away” with me and I fell off on to the hard ground. My Dad picked me up, dusted me off, and that same day put me right back on Chico. No matter how many times I’ve fallen off a horse over the years, my Dad always picked me up, dusted me off, and put me back on the horse. From this I’ve learned that sometimes in life you fall, and it might hurt, but the important thing is to get back up and keep pushing on. Also, I’ve learned that my Dad is always there for me, willing to dust me off when I fall and help me get right back up.
  I have always been a daydreamer, and a big dreamer. If I see something that catches my eye, I set my heart on it and go after it. When I was in high school I became a member of Key Club International. This is where I found my niche: service. I loved the feeling of volunteering and helping others, and I found friends with similar ideals. I went to my first convention for the Utah-Idaho District, and there I found my biggest dream up to that point: becoming a Lieutenant Governor on the District Board. As I saw the Board members sitting up in front of the meetings, leading discussions about service and leadership, I knew that it was something that I wanted to be a part of. For the next year I worked on preparing myself for this position. I dreamed about it night and day, and finally the moment arrived. The position of Lieutenant Governor is voted on by members of each division, so I found myself running a campaign. I came up with fun slogans, prepared my platform, and worked on getting votes. When the announcement of the winners from each division were made and my name was called as Lieutenant Governor for Division 8A, my heart soared, knowing that a dream had literally come true.
  When I came home from the convention I found that my family was just as excited as I was. The reality of my new position sank in very quickly, as I learned that my responsibilities included visiting all of the high schools in my Division and checking on their Key Club branches. For a shy, small town girl, this was a huge feat. As I prepared myself to go to my first club meeting at another school I was nervous, until I put on my name badge: Amanda Mair, Lieutenant Governor Division 8A. As the magnet clicked I became the person on my name badge: confident, bold, a leader. Over the course of the year I became that person more and more, and not just when I was wearing my badge. I floated on cloud nine for that year as Lieutenant Governor, and though I was saddened when it ended, I was excited for the new experiences that this dream come true had prepared me for.
  My service in Key Club motivated me to seek out ways to help others as I moved on to the College of Eastern Utah. There I found the SUN (Serving Utah Network) Center, and more opportunities to serve than I had ever imagined. I was fortunate enough to be accepted as a leader my first semester, and began coordinating efforts to get volunteers for the Castle Valley Center, a school for students with special needs. It was during this time of volunteering at the Castle Valley Center that I first realized my passion and desire to work with individuals with disabilities. I found that working with such individuals was something that came naturally to me, while others would say that they could never do anything like that. My heart grew and expanded to love all of the students I got to work with, and I realized that my path in life would eventually lead to a career in the field of Special Education.
  The path to becoming a Special Educator has been winding, and I have made a detour or two along the way. One of these detours was to the South, Alabama and Mississippi to be precise. I had the amazing opportunity of serving as a missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints in these two states. Here my heart grew to love people I had never met, and a way of life that was very different from my life back in Utah. As a missionary I had the opportunity to serve in many capacities: at the Birmingham Botanical Gardens, soup kitchens around Thanksgiving and Christmas, people we came in contact with, and nursing homes. I also got a chance to teach. I discovered that teaching is something that comes naturally to me, whether it’s teaching others about my church, or teaching struggling students. My time in the South was truly a fortunate time.
  Now I am fortunate enough to be looking at the opportunities that are unfolding before me as I conclude my degree in Special Education through Utah State University. As I stated before, my life has been a series of fortunate events, not all of which will fit into this document. (Don’t worry, when I publish my memoirs you will have a chance to read all of my fortunate events!) All of these fortunate events have shaped me, have shaped my life. I stand here on the brink of my next dream coming true, and I know that I am ready for this because of all that my life experiences have taught me. I can confidently walk towards my dreams, knowing that if I dream it and work for it, it will happen.

Friday, August 3, 2012

Toes in the sand

Every month I tell myself that I am going to sit down and catch up on my blog. Here I am, over 4 months since my last post...oops! Life has been crazy, I'll blame it on that.
 This past summer has been a whirlwind of excitement, fun, and above all else, school. During spring semester I met with our program adviser, and she excitedly told me how relaxed and laid back summer semester would be. We would be in for the long-haul, but we would have some weeks where we went to class, and some weeks where class would be online. In her words, "You can sit on the beach with your toes in the sand, laptop and a WiFi connection...it's going to be a great semester!" My initial thought was, who has the money to go somewhere with a beach?
 Well, here we are 4 days from the end of the semester. We have had weeks in class, and weeks of online lectures, but I'm not sure when we were supposed to have time for the beach. We have had assignments due every week (assignmentS, as in plural) that have required double-digit hours to complete. The best part, we're somehow supposed to be able to fit these weeks worth of double-digit-hour assignments into planning for 1 day, after we've been teaching and working all day...right. I'm feeling pretty burned out with school, but that's how it is at the end of every semester. I feel grateful for how my life has been this semester-my classmate has had one family crisis, emergency, or big deal of some sort going on since midterms spring semester. Her life has been crazy, and she's had to throw school on top of it. I have been blessed and fortunate to not have any family craziness, and for that I am grateful.
 On a much brighter note, I've been able to have something to look forward to Tuesday-Saturday every week:I've been able to spend that time with my adorable nephews! I love those two kiddos so much! Every morning Sam comes down to my room, swings the door open wide, and says, "I wake you up!" He then climbs into my bed and asks for my iphone. He plays games, watches his TV shows, or plays music while I get a couple extra minutes of sleep. Shortly after we go upstairs to find Mark and eat breakfast. We get to spend the day playing, having fun, and doing whatever we want. I have really enjoyed the time with Sam, Mark, and my sister and her husband. It's not a bad way to spend summer vacation!
One more thought-I am two semesters away from graduating! It's so close, and so exciting! Hooray!

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Becoming a "Grownup"

A few weeks ago I took a huge step towards becoming a full-fledged, card carrying, test passing teacher: I took the Praxis. For those of you not familiar with the teaching world, the Praxis is basically a competency test in which you are tested on your knowledge in your field of studies and targeted area. Naturally, I took the Middle School English language Arts Praxis. Because I'm totally going into teaching Middle School Language Arts! Not. I am going to be a Special Education teacher. So why the MSELA Praxis? Great question! I haven't gotten a clear answer on that as of yet, but the best I can understand is that in order to have my own classroom someday I need to be highly qualified. In order to be highly qualified I need to take (and pass) one of two Praxis tests; either the Middle School Language Arts, or Secondary Math. Math and I don't mix, so I opted for the Language Arts.
As I was driving to Salt Lake City to take my test I started to panic, but my panic had nothing to do with my lack of test preparation or test anxiety. This was more like the panic I had when I turned 17: I was insanely worried about turning 20, which was only three years away. This really caused me a great deal of concern for most of the year I was 17. The anxiety I had on this test day went something like this: I am taking the Praxis. Teachers take the Praxis. You have to take the Praxis before you student teach-I student teach one year from now. Six months after student teaching comes getting a position as a teacher in a school. By myself. As a real teacher. I am nearly a teacher. I am going to be in charge of the education for struggling learners in less than two years. I'm not ready. I don't know enough! Why are they letting me be a teacher?!
At this point my heart was racing about as fast as my thoughts, my palms were sweaty, and I was ready to turn the car around and go home. Then I took a breath and reminded myself that I was only taking the Praxis that day, and that there was still plenty of time for me to learn the things that I need to in order to become a good teacher. This was only a step!
After that I became more excited than nervous about my future. Yes, it is scary to think that within the next two years I will be a full-fledged, card-carrying teacher with my own classroom and students, but by the time that comes I will be ready. There are also some fun things that will accompany this big advance in my life, including moving out and being on my own. I look forward to living in my apartment or cute townhouse with one of my friends, doing the young and single thing, teaching by day and partying by night...it's going to be great!
Growing up is a scary part of life, and I thought that by 25 I would be there and be ready. Even though I am still working on growing up, life is good! Things happen as they need to, and I am getting the preparation that I need to become great in everything that I do. Becoming a "Grownup" isn't as scary as I once thought it was.