Of Elephants, Tigers, and Bulldogs

Day 29
There are experiences in life that make or break us, define and refine us. These experiences make up so much of who we are, and why. One of those experiences in my life was the opportunity that I had to serve as a missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints in the Alabama Birmingham Mission. This was one of the best times of my life. While in Alabama I fell in love with a land, people, mad way of life that still feels like home to me.  While in Alabama and Mississippi I was refined and defined.
I learned so much about spirituality while in the South. The people on the South are a God-fearing and God loving people who willingly and actively devote their lives to The Lord. Everyday. It doesn't matter if they are on a fire truck, teaching a class, running a company or staying home with their children, they let the influence of God be part if everything that they do. From these Southerners I learned what it truly means to be a Christian. Being a true Christian is more about how you live your life than anything else. I learned that loving God and doing His will takes practice. We are not perfect here in this life, and God knows it. He sent us here to practice and to walk his way. Occasionally we make mistakes and lose our way, but a s part of the practice, our Leader is always there to guide and coach us back to His loving arms.
I learned what it means to be happy in ways that I could never have imagined before. I learned that happiness comes through friends, random strangers, acts of kindness, and  many other ways. I learned that happiness can be sweat marks on your back at the end of a long day. It can be dancing in the rain because you are so excited about life decisions that someone is making. It can be finding a wreath on your door at Christmas. Happiness is what you make it, and you can find it in so many ways.
While in the South I learned that love has many languages, and with a little time and lots of prayer, our hearts can learn to speak those languages. Some of the best and most spiritual experiences that I had in the South were with a man who was unable to speak. Though he was unable to verbally share his thought, his spirit spoke. Plumes to my heart. This was one source of happiness that I found.
I learned that there two important questions to ask someone the first time you meet them: what church do they go to, and who is their team. The answers to both of these questions can make or break a friendship. I will never forget the time that my new companion tried to show if her knowledge of the correct answer to the team question by reciting teams and their mascots: the Alabama Tigers and Auburn Elephants. (I also learned about true love when this family didn't kick us out of their home!) after checking to ensure that their neighbors hadn't heard this blasphemy, the family kindly corrected my companion: Alabama Elephants (Roll Tide!) and Auburn Tigers (War Eagle!)
I learned who I am at heart- a girl who loves the country, true barbecue, the South, her momma and daddy, God the Father and His Son, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit. I am a girl who loves those around her. My heart is forever torn between two places, Utah and the South, but that's ok. I like it that way.
I have been forever changed, for the better, by my mission and the people I was blessed to be able to meet! I love you all!

A few lines that may get me in trouble:

If you wanna get to heaven where the streets are gold
you've gotta know the password which is Roll Tide Roll!
But you can't get to heaven in a red canoe because God's favorite colors are Orange and Blue!
War Eagle! Roll Tide! War Eagle! Roll Tide!

The Ties that Bind

Day 28
Today, like many, I am thankful for my family. They have each been featured on their own day, but today I need to express my thankfulness to them collectively. I am who I am today because of my family. They have always been my safe harbor, my refuge, my strength when I am weak, my rock to stand on, and on occasion, the cannon to shoot me to where I needed to be. I have learned so many life lessons from my family, and they have each shaped and molded me in some way.
I am thankful for my extended family as well. I am blessed to have such a large extended family, and though we don't always see one another, we're always there for each other. I love that one of the highlights of my year is when Uncle Jerry visits from Alaska. I love that my favorite traditions and memories are centered on my extended family. To each member of my extended family, thank you for your love and support.
The thing that I am most thankful for in regards to my family is the knowledge that they are mine forever. I know beyond any shadow of a doubt that we will all be together in the next life. This is God's plan for all families, and I know that you can also be with your family forever. This is the greatest blessing in my life-this knowledge of eternal families.
"We may not have it all together, but together we have it all," is a fitting quote. Each member of my family adds a piece to the puzzle to make a beautiful whole. Here's a shout out to the best family, my family. I love you guys so much!!!

Bookworms

Day 27
Today I am thankful for books and reading. I have had a couple of conversations about reading with different people this week and it has made me even more thankful for this favorite past-time of mine. I love getting lost in a story, all wrapped up with the characters and their emotions. Many times I have stayed up into the wee hours of the morning reading a book because I was going to "read just one more chapter..." This has been a lifelong love of mine: I remember waking up early on Saturday mornings to read my latest Babysitter's Little Sister book. Even now, when presented with an opportunity to read or do just about anything else, I will choose to read. I have been to so many places through books. I have fallen in love with so many different men, had my heart broken by many of those same men, and been swept off my feet. I have been so mad at characters and plot twists, almost feeling as though they were real and really taking place in my life.Reading is a great adventure. There's nothing better than the butterflies I get in my stomach as I turn to the first chapter of a new book. On the other hand, there is nothing quite like the feeling of being lost after finishing an exceptionally good book. Series are even harder on the soul to finish!
I am thankful for friends who love to read and will talk literature with me. I am thankful for friends who like to read and will talk literature with me. I am thankful for friends who don't like to read-we don't usually talk literature, but that's ok too! I love getting to be a teacher and talk books with my students. I love sharing my favorite books with people, in hopes that they will love the book as much as I did.
I'm going to borrow an idea from my mom and give a shout-out to those who taught me how to read. Though I would like to argue that I was born knowing how to read, I know that a lot of time and patience went into this task. Thank you to each person who brought books and reading into my life and helped to instill the bookworm in my heart.

Spraying for Rodents

Day 26
Today I am thankful for a two-day work week. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids, but I also love breaks! I'm also thankful that my principal lied to us all today and announced that we had to leave the building by 3:15 because they were spraying chemicals for rodents. Being new I believed it, so I hurriedly packed everything up. Then I realized that his message was code for "Go home, it's Thanksgiving break!" Once I realized that I found myself with some time to do the things that don't usually get done on a regular day: I sanitized all of the desks and tables in my room, found my desk (it's been buried for a while, and today my aide asked if a paper was in "this pile") changed my calendars over, straightened the desks, combined hand sanitizer bottles, and a few other odds and ends. I may have brought home a boat-load of homework, but at least my room is organized and clean! And it's all because of a tall tale about spraying for rodents! So far this break has been off to a great start, for which I am thankful!

Big Brother (in-law)

Day 25
Today I am thankful for my brother-in-law, Nic. He is such a thoughtful person, and is always looking out for those around him. You won't find anyone more willing to give you the shirt off their back if you're in need. Nic is a great example to me of what it means to be an every-day-missionary. He doesn't get in anyone's face, but he shares the gospel through his example. One of the things that I really appreciate about Nic is that he isn't afraid to admit that he isn't perfect. And that's one of the things that makes him a good missionary. People listen to him because he is real, and that's what they need.
I have been the recipient of Nic's good missionary service many times, as well as his willingness to do anything to help those he loves. I appreciate right now that he is working so hard to help me with my new adventures. I also am thankful that he is willing to to give sincere compliments. I may only see him a few hours each day, but when he tells me that he knows I am rocking it as a teacher, I know that he means it, and that it's true! Love ya, Nic!

"Getting to Know You..."

Day 24
Today I am thankful for my sister-in-law, Felicia. When I first met Felicia I was very much intimidated by her. She and my brother had been dating for most of my mission, so I was the last family member to meet her. Felicia and I are both quiet by nature, which made it hard to get to know her at first because it meant that I actually had to talk! After a couple of months we found some common interests, and became fast friends. Felicia is so much fun to be around! She is creative and has awesome style, not to mention great taste in movies. I love having "sister dates" with Felicia. Mostly we eat pizza and watch movies, but it's perfect! I love getting to spend time with her. She is so perfect for my brother, and for our family. Felicia is one of my very best friends, and I am so thankful that my brother married her so that I can have her as a sister forever! I am truly blessed to know such a kind hearted, sweet, funny, pretty, strong woman! I love that I can laugh with Felicia, and that she's willing to laugh at me when needed. She truly has become a sister to me, and I love her so much!

Nanny Manda

Day 23
Today I am thankful for my nephews and niece. Yesterday I wasn't feeling very well, so when I got home from work I went right to bed. I didn't see much of my sister or her family until this morning. When I came upstairs I saw Sam, who came running up to me to say good morning. I picked him up, said good morning, and kissed him. Sam sighed, leaned back in my arms, and said "I'm in love." I was laughing and had to put him down, but I feel the same-I am so in love with him, his tow brothers, and their sweet cousin, Erika.
Sam always knows how to make me laugh and smile. He is my little buddy and we have fun adventures together. Sam is always good for a laugh, a hug, a kiss, or whatever it is that you need.
Mark is a tough cookie sweetheart. He is Mr. Independent, but my heart melts every time he wants to hold my hand or cuddle. I'm pretty sure that his smile powers the sun.
Cole is an adventure a minute. It feels like he has been laughing since the day he was born. Cole marches to the beat of his own drum, and I love it. One of my favorite quotes about Cole: "He bit me!" "Well, don't put your hand by his mouth." And I was the one who got bit! He's a wild child and I love it!
Miss Erika is a super sweet and adorable little lady. I got to spend the summer babysitting her, and I loved it! She is so cuddly and sweet! I miss getting to spend so much time with her, but I love getting to play with her on Sunday nights!

I am referred to as "Nanny" by these four kiddos, and I love it. There is nothing sweeter to my ears than hearing each of them begin to form that name on their lips. Each time they call me "Nan" my heart melts, and they know that I will do anything for them. Nannies are made to spoil their kiddos, and I take my charge very seriously!

The Path Less Traveled

Day 22
It took me a little thought to come up with what I am thankful for, not because I am feeling unthankful, but because there is so much to choose from. Luckily just as I sat down to write I came up with the perfect topic that covers everything I am thankful for today: I am thankful for my job. Now you're going to get the back story.
After I finished my student teaching I started searching for jobs like crazy. I applied in so many districts for any open elementary special ed positions. I applied for early childhood positions that I was not qualified for, but planned on pursuing that qualifications on the job. I emailed people like crazy, put out feelers all over, and all I got in return was silence. There was one district that I really wanted to work for, but they only had part-time openings. I was starting to feel like I was never going to find a job. As I was searching I finally found a full-time elementary sped position, and I applied for it. Later as I looked over the job again I realized that it wasn't what I was looking for, but when the call came for the interview I went. It was a great interview, they said they would let me know within the week, and I waited to hear back. And then I waited some more. A little over two weeks had passed by and still no news. Finally I got a call from the woman on the district level who had been at the interview. She told me that they still hadn't made a decision for that job, but asked if I would be willing to be added to the candidate pool for the district. I said yes, and the very next day I got a call. It was from a middle school looking for a sped math teacher. For those of you who don't know, I don't do math. I turned down the opportunity to interview with them and worried that I was shooting down my chances to find a job.
A few days later I got a call from another middle school. Middle school was not on my horizon of places to end up, but I couldn't come up with a reason to decline this interview. It wasn't for a math position, so I figured going to the interview would at least be good practice. It turned out to be the worst interview of my life. I have no experience at all with middle school special education, or secondary sped for that matter, so there were many questions that they asked that I did not know the answer to. Luckily I'm pretty good at BS, so I was able to come up with a few answers, but I did say "I don't know the answer to that," more than once. I left the interview in tears. As I was driving home I realized the answer to one thing for sure-I was NOT getting that job!
So imagine my surprise when a couple of days later they called to offer me the job. I was tempted to ask if we had all attended the same interview! I asked for some time to think about it, then proceeded to have a panic attack/emotional breakdown. Middle school was not where I wanted to end up. I was meant to be an elementary school teacher-that's all I knew! The interview had been awful, and I felt like maybe I was the least awful candidate so that's why they called. I talked to my good friend Vivian who encouraged me and told me that I could do this. She repeated the oft quoted line from out program, "you can do anything for a year." I talked to my Mom and sister who both thought this was a great opportunity and thought that I should've said "yes" before getting off the phone. Then I talked to my Dad. I cried and told him all of my above concerns. Then he did what all good dads do, he said "Cowgirl up." He then talked to me about how this wasn't all just about me. God has a purpose and a plan for me, and He was handing me this opportunity. (Let it be mentioned that Mom and Jolene said this as well.) Dad said that perhaps I was exactly what those kids needed, and that was why God was working so hard to put me there. As I talked with my Dad I realized what my answer would be. I had told the school that I would call them by noon the next day, but I ended up calling them back within two hours. I accepted the position and stepped through the door into the perfect setting that God had planned for me.
I love my job!  Each day I get to go to work and teach the most amazing set of students. Each of them has touched my heart in ways that I cannot even begin to describe. I truly feel like they are my "kids." I don't know if I am exactly what they needed, but they are exactly what I needed. I have learned and grown so much since I started down this road with them.
One of the things that I am thankful for is the confidence that I have gained as a professional in my field. I started out pretty timid, but I am quickly letting that go as I work to do the things that I need to do to be the best teacher that I can be for my students. I am standing up and fighting for the things my kids need, and it is so empowering! I am becoming more comfortable interacting with the administration, and it is so nice to not feel like your heart is going to jump out of your throat each time you talk to your principal. In fact, today I was able to confidently approach him and invite him into my room to complete an interview for my observation. No panic! I have gained so much confidence in working with the general ed teachers in my building, and I can explain to them what my students need. I have gained confidence in conducting an IEP. Heaven knows I had plenty of experience during my student teaching, but that was with Patti by my side, filling in any holes that I missed. Now it's just me, and it's okay. Yesterday I had an IEP where a parent was asking a lot of good, valid, and complicated questions. I was able to competently answer his questions, and he left feeling like he knew better how to help his student. I was able to use my knowledge and skills to do that!
I am thankful for all of the people that I have met along the way. I am getting to know more and more teachers, which I really enjoy. Today in particular I am thankful for one person: Bear. He is pretty amazing. It's crazy how a psychologist can get you to open up without even realizing it! He is so good with the students, and also with the adults. Because of him I found the confidence within myself to talk to other teachers. He helped me to remember why I took the job when I was feeling overwhelmed, which helped me to pull out of that rut. And Bear reminds me to laugh. Today I talked with him about a situation that I had yesterday with an unmedicated student. I was seriously ready to pull my hair out! I realized that the kid really couldn't help himself, but that didn't take away my frustration. As I described to Bear how hard I had tried to get the kid to do even one math problem, and that later the kid had managed to crash land out of a chair, with the chair landing on top of him, Bear just laughed. He said "Isn't it funny today? You've just gotta laugh at some of these things." It is funny today, and it was funny yesterday, but I still hope that we don't have this situation again. I like having hair!
I realize that this post is forever long, but it needed to be to sum up what I am thankful for. I love my chickadees (they all yell at me when I call them that)/minions (and yes, the do vary from yellow to purple, but no, jelly doesn't work on them...) more than I could have realized four months ago. I love having the opportunity to practice and use the skills that I have worked so hard to acquire over the past few years. Most of all, I love doing what I am passionate about everyday. I know that God had to work pretty hard to open this door for me, and I am so glad that He did. My life has been blessed in ways that I could have never imagined. I truly live a beautiful life!

My P.B.& J.

Day 21
Today I am so very thankful for my aides, Janice and Becky. Without these two women I literally would not be able to do my job. They are constantly on the run, managing assignments for students when they are out of my room, putting out friend-fires, making copies for me, and basically keeping order. I am so spoiled by them. Today I was trying to get ready for an IEP after school when a different parent came in and wanted to talk. I still needed to print the IEP, find my table underneath the pile of papers, books and posters that had taken up residence on it, and make my room look a little more orderly. My sweet para saw my need and probably the panic in my eyes, so she quietly straightened up while I talked with this other parent. She got me a new ink cartridge when my printer gave me a pink version of the IEP, printed a new copy for me, gathered the Procedural Safeguards and information sheet...and just overall saved the day. She even went hunting down administration and teachers to come to my IEP!
Everyday these two women work so hard to make sure that our students have what they need to be successful outside of my room. They help me balance subjects when I have multiple things to teach in one class period, and they even occasionally get to take over teaching while I deal with the crisis of the day. Janice and Becky are the quiet heroes of my room. I try everyday, multiple times, to tell them thank you, but it goes deeper than that. I cannot adequately describe how thankful I am for these two women in my life!
On a similar note, I am so thankful for Patti, my cooperating teacher from my student teaching! Though I am in my own school and in my own class she is still there to offer support and encouragement as needed. I sent her an email in a panic this morning and she quickly answered back and gave me the information that I was missing. I love knowing that she is there for me as a cheerleader, and that she has confidence in my abilities. So many times I think back to the conversations we had and the feedback she gave me, and it is what gets me through. If I do anything right at all during the day it is because she taught me right! I only wish that we were teaching at the same school, or even the same district! I sure do love and miss her!

The Best Medicine

Day 20
Today I am thankful for those little moments everyday that make me laugh. Or giggle, chortle, chuckle, guffaw, or whatever the case may be. These are the moments that life is made of. Life isn't always easy, and some days you get a bad draw, but a little humor can go a long way, even on those days. Some days you laugh because that's the only thing left to do. Other days you laugh because you're so tired that everything becomes insanely funny (today being one of those days). Yet other times the laugh comes from much deeper, and represents more than momentary humor. I think that our souls laugh when they are perfectly peaceful and content, safe, loved, and understood. On those days the laugh comes from your heart and spills out. I find this happening very often as I teach and interact with my students, when I get kisses from my three little nephews and my niece, and when I'm with my family. It's true that laughter is the best medicine!

Here's to "The Head"

Day 18
Today I am thankful for kindhearted administrators and advisors who are willing to let my kids feel helpful. I mentioned last week that my kids really want to find a way to help with the Haiyan survivors in the Philippines. I approached my administration, and today I was told that my kids will get to help in conjunction with the fundraiser that our school does for the Angel Tree. I am so excited to get to tell my kids about this tomorrow-I know that they will be so excited that they get to help!




Day 19
I am thankful for my little brother, Jason. Last night a friend asked me if my brother had changed a lot while I was on my mission. In some ways he was still my little brother, but in other ways he had grown up a lot. When I came home from my mission I found that my little brother had become a man. Jason has always had a strong work ethic, and he's a good hearted soul who is willing to help others out. This part of him was even more evident to me. I was especially grateful that Jason and I got to work together for nearly a year after I got home. I loved driving to work with him everyday and getting to talk to him. He became man number two in my life, right after my Dad. If I can't get in touch with my Dad I will call Jason to ask for his help. I trust his opinions and his advice. He is a strong man, and I love him very much!
My little brother isn't so little anymore, but that's okay. I love that I can look up to him not just because of his physical stature, but also because of his moral and spiritual stature. My little brother has become a great husband and daddy. I am grateful that because of him I have an amazing sister in law, and the most adorable and lovable niece. I am one lucky girl to have such a great brother!

That's what friends are for...

Day 16
Today I am thankful for modern transportation. I'm kinda weird, and this is actually something that I think about quite often. It wasn't that long ago that people traveled on foot or four-legged beast to get from one place to another, and generally, people didn't travel very far. If your family member or friend moved over 50 miles away chances were that it would be a very long time before you saw them again. I am thankful that I live in a day and age where since the age of 16 I have been able get into a car and go wherever I needed to go, whether it was a mile down the road to get milk, or 45 miles to go visit my sister. I am very blessed that this is my life!



Day 17
Today I am thankful for two things wrapped into one. The first thing is my friend Kim Price, aka Kim Possible. I met Kim when I went to college in Price and she was my dorm-mate. We became fast friends, and have stayed close all of these years. Kim was always willing to take me along on adventures, especially trips back into civilization. I remember one winter Kim invited me to come to "The Forgotten Carols" with her family. I had never been before and was super excited for it. I fell in love with the story, music, and the Spirit that was part of the performance. At the end Michael McLean talks to the audience about people who couldn't make it to the performance that night for whatever reason: they are sick, live too far away, or perhaps they have passed on. Then he invites the audience to sing the following words with him: "We can be together forever someday." That night as I sat in that auditorium my thoughts went to my grandparents, who had all passed away by that point in my life. My eyes filled with tears as I thought about each one of them, and I knew that I would be together forever with them someday. Kim looked over at me and knew where my thoughts were because she and our other dorm-mates had supported me through the loss of two of my grandparents that year. I remember her sweet testimony as she told me that she knew that I would get to see them again someday. I miss each of my grandparents, Danny and Virginia, Ernie and Ida, and I do know that I will be with them and all of my family forever someday. That is the other thing I am thankful for tonight-the words "we can be together forever someday." I know that they are true, not just for me, but for each of you, too. A loving Father has made it possible for us to be with those we love forever, with Him.
Kim-I am forever thankful that you invited me to the play that night. Each time I listen to the soundtrack I think of you. You are an amazing friend to me! I love you so much!

Kindred Sister Bosom Friends

Day 15
Today I am thankful for friends, and more specifically, best friends. As we journey through life we occasionally come across a kindred spirit, bosom friend, best friend. I am very lucky and fortunate that my best friend came built into the standard package. Though we didn't realize it when we were younger, my sister and I are kindred spirits/bosom friends/best friends.
My sister, Jolene, has some amazing talents and passions. One of her passions is reading. She does amazing book reviews, and has started to do them for my class. Last week I offered her services to another teacher in my department, and so today my sister got to spend the entire day at my school doing book reviews. This is a true friend. I love that she got to come. My students look forward to hearing from her, and she does a fantastic job! Plus, it's fun just to be around her!
Another passion and talent that my sister has is being a great mom. She has three active little boys, and they are pretty lucky to have her as their mom. No one will love them, serve them, protect them, or help them like she does. Jolene is always looking for ways to bring her other passions and knowledge into her parenting, and as a result her children are having a wonderful childhood! Book clubs for kids 4 and under, story time at the library, fun crafts, and a bunch of other activities to occupy their day. Yes indeed, those are some lucky boys!
Jolene also had a strong testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and strives to actively live it. She is a great missionary, though she doesn't always realize it. Jolene has a way of reaching out through the Spirit and filling needs  because she is obedient to her promptings. She is willing to share her testimony through word and deed. Truly, she is a disciple of Jesus Christ.
I love that my sister and I can have fun no matter what we're doing together. Whether it's watching scary movies, compiling lists of strong female antagonists and weak female antagonists in literature (and what makes them strong or weak), geeking out over books made into movies, comparing plot lines for stories we're working on, or just laughing over random things (she really needs to work on her Google skills...) we always have a good time. We think so much alike that we often say the same thing, at the same time, with the same tone and inflection. It's an art. We tell each other everything, are always there for each other, and always support each other. I would not have gotten my classroom put together if it weren't for her hours of hard work and labor.
There are a million things that I love and appreciate about my sister friend, and everyday I am thankful to have her in my life. This post doesn't even begin to scratch the surface of how truly amazing Jolene is. She is a great example to me, and I try to follow that example in my own life. Jolene-thank you for everything! I love you!

Giving Back

Day 14
Today I am thankful for the tender and genuine feelings of young people. My history class has been watching Channel One News and following the events in the Philippines this week. Today the reporters said that if anyone watching wanted to help out that they could log on to the website. After we finished the segment my students asked how they could help. We went to channelone.com and found out how they suggested people help. The biggest thing that is needed is money. My students suggested that we could collect spare change to send, but they didn't want to stop in our room. Their faces lit up and they got excited as they talked about setting up a collection at all of the lunches to get more people involved. My heart smiled and melted as I watched them come together and brainstorm how they could reach out beyond themselves. It's not often that they are able to make these kinds of connections, so this was a really special day for them. And the best part, it was all of my students, even the one who struggles with his attitude.
I am thankful for those times when my students get to experience a "typical" teen experience. Sometimes their disabilities hold them back, but now they are soaring. I don't know what we'll actually be able to do to help (I need to talk to the higer-ups tomorrow) but just the fact that they want to do something means everything.

"Honey, I'm ho-ome!"

Day 13
Today I am thankful that for the first few months of my teaching career I have lived with my sister and her family. At first when the days were so long and overwhelming it was nice to come home to three little boys hugging my legs and saying, "Nanny! Nanny's home! Nanny!" These three little guys always help me unwind and refocus. They also make for some interesting stories!
I also appreciate dinner every night. I have walked into a pretty good sister-wives situation* where there are three adults, two working outside of the home, and one working in the home raising the kids and cooking our meals. Nic and I make it home each night in time for supper and play time with the boys. We laugh at our set-up, but I know that we are both deeply grateful for all that Jolene does during the day.
I love that I have a built-in support group for whatever kind of day I'm having. It's nice to know that I am accepted and loved at home regardless of how my day went. It's pretty nice to be able to talk your day out, with grown-ups and kiddos alike.
I am so thankful that my sister and her husband have been so willing to help me and support me! I love you guys-you're the best!

*Author's note: We are in no way affiliated with the show "Sister Wives" or any polygamy group. The reference was meant as a pun.

My Crazy Gene

Day 12
Did ya'll notice yet that it's 11-12-13? I was pretty excited to realize that, and it was only half way through my day!
Today I am thankful for mi Madre. Hands down, my mom is cooler than yours! I love that my mom finds ways to connect with just about anyone, anywhere. She never meets a stranger, and once she becomes friends with someone, it's for life. Mom is always doing random acts of kindness for those around her. She is happiest when she has something that she's working on to give someone. And she puts so much thought into the things she makes! One of her favorite things is scrapbooking, and she has done some amazing things with it. Mom, with the help of modern technology, has taken your typical scrapbook and made it into something that you would display in your home. The past couple of years she has made some really awesome memory books for her siblings for Christmas. Mom can always be counted on to make something sentimental for get-togethers with family, and it's something that brings everyone closer as they share their memories.

Perhaps not the most flattering pic of either of us, but I think it captures who we are. :)

I would be untruthful if I didn't mention one more thing-my mom is a little...crazy. Sometimes. Especially when she gets with Aunt Tina, her sister. They have the most hilarious adventures, even just going out to a movie. They always have some new story to tell, and I love it. Jolene and I hope that we can be as crazy and have as much fun as these two sisters when we get older!
My mom is someone who has taught me to care for others, to be a friend, and to enjoy life. One of the things that I love best about my mom is that she has always encouraged me to chase my dreams. Even when my dreams were crazy and hairbrained, she still wanted me to reach for them. Sometimes those dreams don't work out, and she's always been there for those times, too. My mom is the person I call when I need to know how to cook/bake something, when I need creative ideas, and when I need someone to be diplomatic. Better than that, when I'm hurting I know that Mom is there to lift and support me in any way she can. See, didn't I tell you that my mom was pretty awesome?! I love you, Mom!

"And I'll Gladly Stand Up Next to You..."

Day 11
Today is a special day. Today is the day that we say thank you to the men and women who so valiantly fight to preserve the freedoms of our great country. We pause to give thanks to those currently serving, and all those who have served, from every branch of the military. Today we honor you, our veterans!

 There is one special veteran whom I cannot forget. From this man I learned what our flag symbolizes, and what it means to give honor and respect to that flag. From this man I learned to give proper respect to those who have served and currently serve our country. From this man I learned that it is important to stand and fight for what you believe in, even if your country does not support you. From this man I learned to treasure the words of the tried and true songs inspired by this great country that we live in. From this man I learned what it truly to means to love my country with my whole heart and never turn my back on her. There is nothing that makes me more proud than to be sitting at a flag ceremony on Independence Day (or any other special day) next to this man and have him stand among others who have fought for our country. I gladly shed tears with this man as we sing our national anthem, or listen to other patriotic songs. This man has taught me what it means to be a hero from the time I was a little girl. There will never be a time when my Dad isn't my hero. Dad, I thank you not only today, but everyday for the lessons you have taught me and continue to teach me about patriotism. You are a true hero. I love you, Dad, and I am thankful everyday that I get to call you mine. No girl in the world has a better Dad than I do.

Ever since my rodeo days yours has been the voice that stands out amid all the others, giving me the guidance that I need to make a smooth run. Back then it was "turn, kick, kick!" and now it's "Cowgirl up, you can do it." Either way, I know that you are there, cheering me on, and just like those rodeo days, when I fall down I know that you're there to pick me up and put me back in the saddle. Thank you Dad! I love you!

Jesus wants me for a Sunbeam!

Day 10
Today I am thankful for the little things that make my hear smile. A few months ago I was called to be a Sunbeam teacher in my ward. At the time I wasn't sure if the calling came from inspiration or desperation, but today I got a chance to see just how much it was inspiration.
There are only three little boys in my class, and they are as unique and individual as they come. We have a blonde, a brunette, and a red-head. Their little personalities are so amazing and fun, and at first difficult. One of my little guys really struggled to come to class when I first started. Weeks of him kicking and screaming, mom trying to bribe him, and all other efforts we put in just couldn't do the trick. Slowly it got better, and now he comes to class. In the beginning he was aloof and not every interested in me.
Today was different. He actually wanted to sit by me, and on multiple occasions he came up to me to talk to me. He is still learning to talk and has some struggles, but he feels comfortable enough with me to try out his language skills. My heart smiled so brightly today as he came and whispered in my ear. At another point he played the "who's hand is on top" game with me. Touching wasn't something that he used to be willing to do. These two things made my heart smile.
Also on the list of heart smiles, one of my other little guys, who is normally quiet and shy about participating in class, offered to say the closing prayer. He needed my help, but the fact that he even wanted to try made my heart soar! He did such an excellent job with the prayer, and I'm glad that I get to be part of his journey.
One more heart smile-as part of our lesson I showed a picture of the Last Supper. It was interesting to me that all three boys immediately noticed that Judas stood on the outside, and they wanted to know who he was. I explained to them that the picture showed Jesus with his friends, and that Judas was one of Jesus' friends who had made some bad choices. We moved on to talk about the Last Supper and didn't mention Judas again.
On the car ride home Jolene asked Sam what he learned at church today. Much to my surprise he didn't mention the scripture line that we had rehearsed for the kids to tell their parents, but instead Sam talked about how Jesus ate with His friends and He had one friend who made bad choices. It always amazes me what sticks in little minds.
These are just some of the little things that make my heart smile. There are so many every day, and I am thankful that I could take this one day of thanks to let them shine.

Free Bird

Day 9
Today I am thankful for Saturday. It's a pretty awesome day! An entire day dedicated to doing everything you neglected to do during the week. Also, when you're a teacher, it's a goo day to be sick. No student are vying for your attention, no lessons need to be taught, no nothing! I spent most of today asleep (who knew I could sleep so much!) and it felt amazing. Other Saturdays have been equally amazing in the things that I have been able to accomplish. I am so thankful to have this one day a week to be a free bird.

"Um, may I sit on the back row?"

Day 8
Today I am thankful for soft tissues (more specifically the ones with lotion) cold medicine, Vitamin C, enthusiastic students who keep me going, and the fact that it's November and I am only now getting my first cold of the school year. Sporting a pre-season Rudolph nose while carrying around your own box of tissues doesn't exactly send out the "come gather around me" vibes (I actually had a student on the front row ask if he could go sit in the very back corner of the classroom...). But, I've made it through the day. Perhaps the thing that I am most thankful for today is that it's Friday, and I can take some nighttime cold medicine and not worry about sleeping through my alarm in the morning. This also means that (hopefully) my germs won't spread throughout my entire class (though I can tell you exactly who started this stream of germs!) and we won't have to deal with more germs and sickness. (This is the dream of a teacher-to have no germs in her room!) And now that my pm cold meds are kicking in, I'm going to sign off, thankful that I have the chance to actually breathe through both nostrils.

Part of the Team

Day 7
Today I am thankful for all of the support that I receive at my school. Being a first-year teacher is all sorts of crazy. I feel like most days I am lucky to still be standing and know my name at the end of the day. I constantly have a mountain of paperwork looming over my head, and I find myself consistently multitasking everything from teaching to my thoughts. I can't even remember the last time I had just one thought at a time! Over this past week I've really started to see just how much support I have, and I'm realizing that I am not a lonely island at the end of the hall. I am getting a chance to get to know and work with more people, and I'm starting to really be me. So many people have been so willing to help me in so many ways, and I am so thankful for it! This job isn't easy, but it's possible when you have a great support team.

18 Reasons

Day 6
I am thankful for my students. Lately I've been making them write about their emotions (which they abhor) but it's been fun for me to get an insight into their lives. A few days ago we wrote about love, and I explained that there are many different kinds of love. As an example, I told them that I love them. They got all weirded out, but I think (I hope) they got the message. Over the past 3 months I have learned 18 new ways to love. Each of my 18 students holds a special place in my heart. I work so hard to make things good for them. I fight for them everyday. I love them like a mamma duck loves her ducklings. I may quack at them from time to time, but when it comes down to it, I'll do everything in my power to protect them and watch over them.
I love my job. I love my students. I love every day that I get to spend with them, even the days that drain me physically and emotionally. Those students are the reason I get up and go every morning. They are constantly on my mind. I am one lucky teacher!

Calming the Banshees

Day 4
Today I am so very thankful for the gift of music, and most especially Christmas music. I know there are those pre-Thanksgiving-Christmas-music-haters out there, but just hear me out. I'm not at all trying to skip over Thanksgiving. I love Christmas music because of the spirit that it ignites within me. I love how the holiday season (November-December) brings out the best in people. It's as though as a world population we decide to be a little kinder, a little more thoughtful. These feelings open the door to deeper and more tender feelings, and turn our hearts towards our Savior.
I had a pretty rough day. A phone call at 9 am disrupted my teaching, and for the next hour and a half I left my class in the hands of a more than capable para while I dealt with some behavior issues. And that was just the beginning of the day. By the time the day was over I was worn out and done. I had planned to go to Gville, so on the way out I turned up my Christmas tunes. The spirit of peace and thanksgiving slowly but surely entered my heart. Instead of bemoaning my day I found myself thankful that I had been able to handle the situations confidently, and competently. I was thankful for the realizations that I had along with my student, one of which was that he realized just how many people are cheering for him. That was a huge breakthrough.
As I listened to my Christmas music I found myself reflecting on my Savior and how I could turn my cares over to him. I didn't entirely figure it out, but I felt those cares somewhat lifted. I could see the world clearly again without the haze of doubt and uncertainty. This, my friends, is why I love and am thankful for Christmas music.


Day 5
Today I am thankful for the education I received as I made my way towards becoming a teacher. I didn't love all of my classes, but I love that now I use things from those classes. I am even more thankful that the strategies they taught me actually work. Crazy, right? I tried out a behavior technique on my crazy 6th period class and it worked perfectly. Where once I had wild banshees barely contained by desks and focused only on the next funny thing someone would say, I found a group of well-mannered, quiet, and responsive students. And all I had to do was draw a box on the board labeled "Me/You" and explain the benefits of them getting more points than me. One point on my side drove the concept home, and my not so wild banshees earned 5 points by the end of class. Amazing! I am so thankful that someone before me figured this stuff out and shared it with me so that I could benefit and become a banshee tamer.

A light in the dark

Day 2
Today I am thankful for Nigel and Judy Willson. They are the YSA adult leaders in my ward, and they work so hard to make sure that the YSA population is taken care of. We had a game night last night, in which they had put together some Minute to Win It games, and a delicious curry. We had a small group, but we had a lot of fun. I am thankful to them for taking the time out of their lives to support us. They are the best!





Day 3
I am very thankful today for Fast and Testimony meeting. Hearing the testimonies and feeling the Spirit can be difficult when you're with 3 little boys, but there are times when the Spirit reaches out to you through the noise. Today's theme (to me) was centered on the Atonement of Jesus Christ and making it a part of your daily life. I know that my Savior lived and died for me, and that He took all of my burdens and sins upon himself, but I don't know that I reflect on this and appreciate it daily like I should. Lately I've been feeling a little lost spiritually, and I feel like today was the light in the darkness, pointing me to where I need to go to get back on the right path. I am thankful for the testimonies that were shared today, and for the thoughts and feelings they stirred within me.

Just beeee yourself!

Welcome to November! There are a lot of traditions that people have in November: some people enjoy playing in the leaves and drinking hot cocoa. Some begin eating soup multiple nights a week. Others stop shaving in support of "No Shave November." I like personally like shaving, so I'll stick to my smooth legs and just give you a blog full of THANKS everyday this month. I realize that I haven't updated my blog since May, and a lot has happened since then, but my focus this month is going to be on giving thanks. Perhaps along the way I'll find time to update on where I am in life and the journey I took to get here.

Day 1
Today I am thankful for a particular person, who will probably never read this post. I work with a wonderful woman named Rachel. Since the first day I walked into ERMS she has been there to answer my questions. She never seemed annoyed when I would come in multiple times a day to ask seemingly Captain Obvious questions. There were times at first that I would struggle with the way she would answer my questions by asking me a question, but I see now how it helped me to learn and to grow.
Rachel has always been herself when we've talked, and she has been a great cheerleader for me being myself. There were times when I was so worried about what I was doing, should be doing, forgot to do and everything else and Rachel would remind me to take time for myself. So many days as she would leave she would say to me, "You're worth it!" At fist I would smile politely and wonder what it was supposed to mean, but I think I'm starting to finally get it.
Rachel and I have had some good talks and have shared parts of ourselves. From her I am learning how important it is to be me and to believe in me, especially as a teacher. Rachel is such a good cheerleader, and I am grateful that I have her as a friend and coworker. I know that God puts specific people in my path at each stage of my journey, and I know that Rachel is one of those people.